Help!!!!

So.... Where can I start?

Feeling nothing

These days I woke up with a fear of something. Something that I always try to let it go but I can't. I dont know why I am here. Just try to realize that I have to realize what I choosed.

I feel nothing. Nothing.

I need them. My moodbooster who can make my days colorful. Who always make my day bright

Here, Im nothing. Nothing as nothing.

I cant do anything. I feel stupid. So stupid. I just one step behind them. They reach theirs goal easily. But not me.

I want get my life back. My old life  which can do anything by myself. It's kinda like a rejection. Ignored by people and all.

I just wanna make myself believe that  I can do this! I can do what they can do. Actually God gives a fair brain that can think as same as we can

But He just let us how to use this 'gift' for our best

Sometime my mind and my soul cant connect kindly. They feel to each other for something.

God help me!!! I feel nothing cause I'm nothing. I need you. Help me for all of my problem. I'm nothing without you. Thankyou for trusted me that I can. But in fact i just....... I just havent get it yet.

How can I make you happy God? Feel bad that I cant get it. 

Moodbooster I need you!

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