These day I feel like I wanna throw something or punch something so badly because people always try to ruin my life in my sleep. How can I be calm down when people doesn't know to behave because they don't know what I feel. And now I just wanna back to 'there' for a while. Not because that I don't like where I stand now but because I miss my freedom. It's not freedom in a bad way, but it's just freedom in right way so calm down. I just wanna do what I love but I can control what I have to. I love freedom because it gives me a lil space in my life to explore what in myself and blow it up. I hate this when I can even mad when people try to ruin my life am just like to giving up but deep in my self I tottaly mad at all. How I hate when I'm mad at people but I still worry about them. Is it worthy?Do they know why the reason I'm being myself? Do they care the way I care? Do they feel the way I feel. Thats why I love life alone because nobody will ruin my life except that I give 'em chance. Sometime I miss being the one and only one, when nobody can replace my place. I miss it for sure. I hope that they know. :'(
